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I haven’t really written a lot on here for quite some time. Honestly, the last year has truly been about keeping my head above water. If you’ve followed the posts on this blog for the last year, you know that grief has been central to my existence. It, truthfully, felt all consuming and like I’d…

Amy Day

1 year ago today, at this very moment, I sat in my office crying. Knowing you were going to die, and not being able to say anything to anyone else. 1 year ago tonight, I sat on my bed with my husband and sobbed as we got the text from your husband that you had…

Dear Amy

Tomorrow will mark 1 year since I last saw you. On that day, we had our office luncheon and exchanged gifts. We talked about silly stuff, just like every other day; and you weren’t feeling well so I probably monopolized the conversation. We had a very morbid and foreshadowing conversation that I’ve shared with only…

Dear Amy, It’s a New Year

Dear Amy, Today started a new school year at JEB. I find myself in this precarious balance of holding onto you and allowing life to move forward. It’s weird. And hard. And not hard. Which is weird. This weekend, we worked The Blues Travelers at the amphitheater and I found myself shedding tears in the…

Dear Amy #5

Dear Amy, It’s been just over 7 months since you left us. Which feels like just yesterday and a lifetime all at the same time. I still struggle so much with your absence. I want to text you at least twice a week with something that I know would cause your infectious laughter, but I…

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Dear Amy #4

Dear Amy, today is particularly hard for and I just can’t seem to put my finger on why. It’s been just over a month since the world you lived in ceased to exist. This one without you has moved on. And in it, I’m still struggling to find my footing. You were a voice of…

Dear Amy #3

Dear Amy, today I’m angry. I’m consumed by this toxic mix of sadness and anger. I want to talk to you, to hear your laugh, to see your smile. I want to walk into your office and see you there. I’m so angry… at everyone and everything. Yesterday, I spent the day in bed, consumed…

Dear Amy Letter #2

Dear Amy, it’s been just over a week since you left us. 2 days short of a month since I saw you last and heard your voice. In the last week, time seems to have stopped and moved at warp speed all at the same time. We’ve gone on living life, which seems so wrong….

Dear Amy

Dear Amy, Today was horrible. You would have hated everything about this day. You hated being the center of attention. You hated people fussing over you. But, oh how our community came together to support your building today. Because it is your building. That place already feels the loss of your presence. It felt empty…

In the Face of Grief

In the face of grief, life seems to both stop and move in hyperspeed all at the same time. Our senses become heightened, our emotions run out of control at what seems like the most inopportune time, and life keeps going when all we want it to do is stop. There is a simultaneous sense…